20 THiNGS YU DNT KN0W

1. When I was in kindergarten I tripped on a rug and knocked out one of my front teeth .. a week later I knocked the other one out .
2. I have a secret love affair with chipotle, powdered doughnuts, and cold stone banana cameral crunch .
3. My first hard drink was gin and coke at the tender age of 13 or 14 .
4. Smoked weed when I was in 8th grade and moderately throughout high school – smoked heavy at Morgan State (my how shit changes) .
5. I voted for Hillary then Obama !
6. I Don’t open up to people anymore and I finally know the reason why ! When I was in middle school/ high school I had 2 best friends . One story : I told her everything . One day in 2007 I guess her bf told her to stop talking to me and she obeyed . Keep in mind this “boyfriend” doggd her treated her like shit when she did all she could do and beyond for him . Who covered for her when she went up to Boston to see him . . me . Who sat on the phone with them when they talked because she wasn’t supposed to be talking to him .. me . Who listened to you bitch .. me & your just gonna chalk 5 ½ yrs of friendship ? Ok true . Second story : I told him everything . He was always there long story short . He was like the total package I never had . He died of congested heart failure in 2008 . After 6 yrs of a good heathly relationship he was taken away from me . So make your own assumption of why I don’t open up .
7. I push people away .
8. I don’t have a lot of friends who are females who know everything about me . 9. I don’t know how to love .
10. I want a perfect relationship . But I know I won’t get one . So I don’t try . ANYM0RE !
11. In the summer I like to sleep naked .
12. I like to walk around with no bra in M.V. & chase my roomies !
13. I go everywhere with my Cookie Monster .
14. I drink a gallon of water during Spring & Summer .
15. I like to fuck with people when I’m bored .
16. I think children and I share a common ground . I'm a big kid !
17. I have 3 husbands : Common , Young Jeezy & Andre 3000
18. People fall in love with me and I don't know why but somehow they know why . It's scary . & I don't like it .
19. I've been to 2 concerts my whole life : Prince in 2005 & Mary J. and Jay - Z in 2008
20. You will never run into another female like me . I'm the defenition of

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B U R R !

Its funny how I think I found something new in someone else but it’s only a matter of time that, that something new was merely a mistake. You sat here and said that you weren’t here to hurt me and that you wouldn’t do me wrong, but somehow I think that was miscommunication. As soon as I let all my insecurities and guards down completely I end up being in a situation that I tried to avoid. Now I can’t stop questioning you or this thing we call a relationship. I can’t help but think that you, the person that I thought had my best interest at heart, doesn’t. You didn’t have to lie to me – I was the one person that you didn’t have to lie to. I never asked for you to lie to me or sugar coat anything – but this is what happened to me in the past, I’m more open to sharing my self with others then they are with me. You would think that I would learn but stupid me I haven’t learned a bit. But of course you know all about my past. You know of all the bullshit I’ve been through. You even said it yourself; you know why I push you away you know why I act how I act, so why would you out of all people not tell me the truth. You can’t just say sorry and expect my feelings to go back to what they were. You can’t expect me to not question you and your intentions. My mindset is back to what it was in the beginning – which was fucked up. All the progress I had made and the progress I am making is out the door and I am now back at square one, where I didn’t want to be and I don’t know how or when to start again.